An excellent question, that I asked myself repeatedly during that first summer of being married and without an official job title. And I asked it with no small amount of angst. It went a little something like "Who the heck am I now?!?", usually followed by tears and confused looks from Dannon.
I'm not bashing the season. Actually, Jesus rescued me from a sort of burned out, broken down place that I didn't even see. He sat me down in my new little house and pretty much made me stay there for the year. I'm barely exaggerating. A year.
And then summer came again. 2012. Round two.
I found myself meeting with four ladies. Discipleship. Once a week, on a walk, or over coffee. I would listen to hearts full of questions, some the same as my own, some not so familiar. I watched with amazement at the wisdom that was stored in those lives and cried over hearts that had already been through their fair share of war.
I used to think that I had to know all of the right words. I used to think that I had to be able to fix things for them. I thought I had to carry all of those burdens. I wanted so badly to make things work. And I ended up in a scary place where I thought it was up to me.
And I can tell you, friends, you cannot breathe for long like that.
Enter Jesus. He is always so timely. The Rescuer of our souls. Enter Dannon who has taught me so much about pointing people to Jesus.
Just point them to Jesus.
And suddenly, I can breathe again.
Friends. Do you know what the Holy Spirit is capable of? He is in the business of heart change. This summer, I have seen Him enliven hearts and set captives free. I have seen Him whisper wisdom and direct steps. It's just what He does.
And I had a front row seat.
A beautiful gift.
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